blogworthy

So since I have been off of FB I have gotten a bit blogger crazy, turns out there are some pretty amazing people in the world.  I love reading blogs and unlike FB I find them encouraging and for the most part non-addictive.  I just found this blog and almost chocked on my popcorn after reading this: "I have a husband who is so handsome, it hurts me to look at him. I'd follow him to the ends of the earth, and that's basically what I'm doing."  I feel that way about Jeremy, seriously. He. Is. So. Stinkin'. Handsome.  I once wrote his mom a mother's day card just thanking her for making him, no joke.  Turns out he's smart too, like really over the top smart that I often feel totally inferior but it turns out he is just as smitten with me as I am with him, gotta love that. 
Then through one blog or another I came across this blog and was immediately wanting not only her sense of style but also one of her paintings.  Really, super cool.  Jeremy and I like big art, I am sure you have noticed in many of the pictures I post that we like big, big, BIG paintings.  I also like that this girl blogs with her heart, it's not all sunshine and rainbows and anyone who has the heart to post about a negative bank account and asks for prayers deserves a medal of bravery in my book.
It turns out I am not the only one with a completely imperfect life.  I feel like blogging has this sense of camaraderie.  I often feel like I really know someone despite having never met.  There are some really cool people out there with big and/or small problems, who love their kids something fierce, who want to do better, and be better.  I am always striving for that, to be better and do better, I mess up a lot.  I offend easily, I don't learn life lessons the first or even the second time, I say "yes" when I really want to say "no", I chop my hair off and get the official soccer mom haircut and instantly regret it, I snap at my kids, I nag my husband (3rd baby, 3rd baby, 3rd baby...dishes, clothes pick up etc.) I forget to call friends back, I forget to send birthday cards, I show up late, I don't always shower, I put my foot in my mouth, I get nervous when I am intimidated and I gossip (which I just hate about me, working on it, I promise).  Yup, I am totally imperfect.  This blog is not about making my life look good, it's a love letter to my kids and even love is messy sometimes.  Life is  messy.   But, I really love this life.  I am so blessed (3rd baby or not!) and I want to focus on that instead of my many imperfections.  These blogs I am looking at (or following) are heartfelt and moving, some are crazy, some are silly, some are sad but most are just living and loving life to the fullest, I admire that.  I want that, even if I am here in Seattle, even if I don't ever have more kids, even if I can't say "no" . I want the full enchilada (where did that saying even come from?) of optimism!

For the record, Seattle is beautiful, and despite having the official haircut I am not a soccer mom and I have actually been very good at saying "no" lately

(spell check is not working, sorry for the zillion mistakes)